Stress can catch up to us, can’t it? It’s so easy to be engulfed by it, one thing turns to another, to another, to another…soon it’s a humongous snow ball from a million snow flakes that joined to form it. All I can think of is to break the cycle, because it’s so easy to lose control of it so much that it becomes a bloody mess, a huge monster that gets bigger and bigger, sucking more negativity of my life into it’s mouth. So many time’s I just say I need to breathe and need a break from such a monstrosity. But don’t we all feel that sometimes? That’s why people go away? Whether they go on a cruise, a flight out of state, a road trip, a drink of alcohol, etc. But once one returns to reality, back from that vacation or that night out from drinking, they return to their problems. And they need another vacation, starting a repeated cycle of havoc.
Maybe the answer isn’t escaping from our problems temporarily. Maybe the answer is confronting our problems-so as it doesn’t leak into our daily lives, thus contaminating it and overwhelming us with more problems. I was so afraid of speaking up to people, that I accepted my unhappiness as normal. So much to the fact I let things slide for over a year, and it turned to a hairy ugly monster because I waited so long to speak up. Now that I’m speaking up, people who I didn’t want to disrupt, are pissed off. Maybe because they actually have to do their job now? lol.
The moral of the story is don’t self sacrifice yourself and your happiness. Because the people that matter in ur life will stick around, because what you have to say, they will oblige by to make you happy. And the people who don’t matter will make a big stink, because you speaking your truth for your happiness will make them unhappy. They truly don’t matter, because your happiness doesn’t matter to them at all. They won’t upkeep their actions to fulfill your happiness. They may have a temper tantrum from you speaking your truth. But keep steadfast, continue speaking your truth. Don’t let them win by causing you to doubt yourself, undervalue yourself. You’re worth it, I’m worth it. You’ll see. So will I. The trash will take itself out (of our lives because it does not serve us).
Resilient Peaceful Positive Survivor 